It has been a while but still I find it hard to even try to undo the mess it has become. That as friends we have finally come to this, that lingering tinge of bitterness that has evolved into disappointment, sadness and then, realization, that perhaps I have not known you for who you really are. Or is it that I’ve avoided and downplayed the reality that’s been replaying. Either way, when it comes to mind, the realization goes into this repeat cycle that starts with bitterness all over again about what happened that night. Maybe I’ve made a big hoo-ha out of nothing. I miss our times spent together, a little too much maybe, and ironically this cycle serves to keep me away from you then, which might not be all bad it seems.
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Papers weren’t good. Pray I’ll get through unscathed.
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Alot to look forward to after Monday. Soft toy bunny’s still on my mind. I imagine lining my bed with many of them for a mini family portrait 
May never grow out of soft toys.
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Another raincheck. Not welcomed, but unavoidable.
