Flopped my first interview. Not unexpected. But it’s given me an idea of the requirements and made me see that I may not possess the skills necessary for the job. Nonetheless, am glad I went, just for the experience.

Finally had dinner with Adeline after our last plans to meet up fell through. We spoke at length, this time at the MS Sq foodcourt, it was so cold we both were freezing. As with all other heels, this new pair that’s cost me more is really no better Do I really have to invest in the likes of Clarks/ Rockport for a less torturous walk?

Just the other night, I was tasked to go be Mum’s chauffeur again. There I was, waiting at the lights, inching forward as all drivers are wont to do, when suddenly a bike swerved in front of my vehicle! So his bike and my car “kissed”, damnit. I know I can’t be absolved from all blame, but it’s not entirely my fault either Anyway, I immediately apologized and still he didn’t let up and kept staring at his vehicle and at me. If he were Cyclops from x-men, he’d probably zap away my windscreen and come for me. I digress, but you get the idea. I’m keeping mum about it, especially from the family, because I pride myself to be a safe driver. Haha! Friends reading this can choose to not take car rides from me in the future I promise my feelings won’t get hurt.

Driving to places like Woodlands and Jurong freaks me out a little, especially with the heavy traffic and big trucks. Or maybe, that just means that I should drive more often.

Waiting is torturous, in every sense. A friend introduced me to the concept of being “friendzoned”. Apparently, he says, it has different connotations for the two genders. Don’t ask me what, I can’t remember. But I remember thinking to myself that it works the same for both.

Yesterday was a fulfilling day out, partly because I went to the museum (for free!), got to relive some museum-visiting days like when I was in States, got a dinner treat, and went to my first ever concert! Alternative rock band SIMPLE PLAN was anything but simple! They rocked, and actually Steph found them to be better live! So for the very first time, I did my hands-in-the-air, swaying and all, screaming and doing whatever those fan girls do, for mere fun Would have jumped too, if I weren’t wearing a dress HAHA!

Second day of the new year. Not doing a recap of last year because there isn’t a need to when almost everything’s penned down here already.

Caught some nasty bug and am still sick! Missed the stayover. Got dragged out by Dad for a very late wanton mee supper on the night of New Year’s eve, managed a New Year’s day lunch with the poly people and a lunch out with Aunt.

Early today I busied myself with jobhunting and realised it’s a taxing process of uploading testimonials and certificates and filling up application forms. At crossroads deciding what to apply for, and probably should just spam all potential openings.

effects of meds kicking in. incoherent. bedtime!

I realise thi…

I realise this corner has been very much neglected. Now with the trip, Christmas, Boxing Day all out of the way, there’s the Chinese New Year to look forward to.

Macau is gorgeous. We had nice weather and blue skies that day so I managed some decent pictures It was a rush however, and the ferry trip back was very much like a roller coaster. I can’t remember ever going Macau but apparently I did.

Last visited  Ocean Park some 5-6 years ago on the school trip with Linnette and it has since undergone massive changes.

Finally played with Steph and Pearlin at alumni again. CK must feel so out of place with 3 very old seniors around. We tried juggling all remaining parts in place of those absent and it was insane. Our timpani trio and a crash performance takes the cake, like, trust us to come up with an antic like that!

I met Aquarius boy in the bus yesterday. Luckily he didn’t recognise me, or maybe he did but chose to ignore me. Haha! Anyhow my aunt seemed astonished when I told her about him.

Celia asked if I wanted anything for my birthday. When I couldn’t think of any, she replied that I am a lucky girl who has everything she needs. Blessed indeed  Perhaps though, it would be nice if I can get a job soon, repay mum’s CPF and be financially independent. Sometimes, I will jokingly finish off the “I want…” wishlist with a “boyfriend”. But I did not this time because it didn’t even cross my mind till Celia said it. Haha! Seemed to have found some peace with myself with regards to that aspect and am happy to say I’ve been doing well with family and friends! Random: As I was watsapping, it suddenly hit me I haven’t talked on the phone with her for a long time, and that’s because we’ve been using watsapp to chat instead!

Gifted over 80 little bookmarks and nail clippers and a sure sign I’m getting old was the aching back resulting from a long sitting on the floor.

I hope 以毒攻毒 is the way to go because I just finished a whole pack of chocolate wafers despite a hurting throat.

Will be counting down one day ahead with the YNP girls (I presume that’s what we’re doing because we’re going to have a sleepover at Pammie’s). Haven’t had sleepovers at anyone’s for the longest time, not counting chalets.

Ushering in the first day of 2012 with dinner with the poly people! Way to go!

And yes, RED is the new black. Haha for me at least

post exams

Been going out a lot.

Tried clearing notes but realised I really don’t know where to start because I worry I need to use them in the future. I threw away those newspaper clippings I kept, some I’ve stashed away for about 3 years! It looks a little neater there then, but still this nagging thought to dump EVERYTHING to make the room cluster-free.

Met up with the YNP family. More than a year on, we still meet up pretty often thanks to meticulous planning by some

I’ll admit that the time that has lapsed in between meetings sometimes throws me a little off course and makes interactions a little awkward. Takes a while to warm up, and by the end of the meeting usually it’s fine! And I’m really glad we’ve grown to be such steadfast friends!

Thursday was spent at home because the rain was relentless. But we made it out for dinner at a restaurant where we received impeccable service from a manager who joked and bantered with us. The lychee tea she recommended was great, and so was the popiah! The remaining dishes though was disappointing (my brother would say “no boomz!”) so probably won’t be going back anytime soon.

Met Eve on Friday to check out the place with some charity sales or something and did not manage to find anything to our liking. Walked in heels all the way to Great World to catch Breaking Dawn. Haha! Not exactly a twilight fan nor have I watched any of prior instalments but still felt like watching this one anyway. The sneeze towards the end of the show followed by a well-meaning “bless you!” shout across the theater was epic! An early Kuishin-bo dinner to satisfy Eve’s craving.

We weren’t really in sync that day, and half the time I couldn’t quite catch her frequency.And we kept missing our bus stops which resulted in more walking.

Friday was starbucks day with Linn! Brows plucked

then off to baoyi’s for her room-warming and lucky thing I didn’t get lost!

 

 

It has been a while but still I find it hard to even try to undo the mess it has become. That as friends we have finally come to this, that lingering tinge of bitterness that has evolved into disappointment, sadness and then, realization, that perhaps I have not known you for who you really are. Or is it that I’ve avoided and downplayed the reality that’s been replaying. Either way, when it comes to mind, the realization goes into this repeat cycle that starts with bitterness all over again about what happened that night. Maybe I’ve made a big hoo-ha out of nothing. I miss our times spent together, a little too much maybe, and ironically this cycle serves to keep me away from you then, which might not be all bad it seems.

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Papers weren’t good. Pray I’ll get through unscathed.

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Alot to look forward to after Monday. Soft toy bunny’s still on my mind. I imagine lining my bed with many of them for a mini family portrait May never grow out of soft toys.

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Another raincheck. Not welcomed, but unavoidable.

I laughed reading my tutor’s email about the evaluation. It’s hilarious. Pity I’ve already completed my evaluation. But clever integration and associations there with the contents taught in class.

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Met Celia for dinner on Wed and topped it up with supper with GH. Hearing him talk about his problems with his girlfriend makes me relieved I don’t have to deal with problems like his. So many differences to reconcile, so much guessing of thoughts, so much doubt and uncertainty. To love like you’ve never been hurt before is indeed hard; but it’s vital because if always there’s this nagging thought or doubt, how is a couple going to move forward together?

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Finally I am certainly getting my dress next Tuesday. They were apologetic, and threw in a red belt for free and a discount for another dress. I’m beat – woke up at 5.30 to send Mum to work before sending Brownie for servicing. Distracting trying to concentrate on traffic, check the iPhone to tell me where I am, and reading the directions by Dad on paper.

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Should turn in early. If only he can already tell me what time we’re meeting!

oh wow. surprise me.

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her little girl looks so pretty and fragile. but I wonder how she feels being a mother now, and I hope she can cope fine juggling motherhood and school.

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finally I’m done with submission and can heave a brief sigh of relief before starting the gears again to finish the assignment and revising for finals.

craving for koi, char kway tiao!

I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that’s all they do. They don’t pull away. They don’t look at your face, they don’t try to kiss you. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it.
—Waitress (via mystiquesticks)

DECEMBER=BEAUTY
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Loves freedom. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. having many children. Hardworking. High spirited .

At some rare moments when churning out a report, I revel in looking through what I’ve written, and think of how I can link it all together.

Is this the elusive flow?

I want to think of school as a process, a place to make all the mistakes I can, but it gets really hard when I think of the grades.